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Chapter 12: I Love You But In The End I Will Destroy You

by The Emo Diaries

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1.
My hearts like stone. My hands are like snow. I'm standing at the doorstep cos I'm letting you go. I'm holding it together cos I cant let it stop. If you find out, you'll never let this drop. Yes I thought you knew I loved you. Yes I thought you understood. I'll never be the same in this strange neighborhood. And I cant quite grasp, that I cant pretend. I truly understand that this is going to be the end. How did we get here. I cant see its unclear. How do I get so close. And cant still understand my fear. It's been seventeen hours but you haven't come back. I keep my eyes on the clock cos I know that I'll lose track. And I'm missing you so much but I cant call you on the phone. I don't know who your with but I'm hoping your alone. Yes I thought you knew I loved you. Yes I thought you understood. I'll never be the same in this strange neighborhood. And I cant quite grasp, that I cant pretend. I truly understand that this is going to be the end. How did we get here. I cant see its unclear. How do I get so close. And cant still understand my fear. My hearts like stone. My hands are like snow. I'm standing at the doorstep cos I'm letting you go. I'm holding it together cos I cant let it stop. If you find out, you'll never let this drop.
2.
you were gonna take your time. now you're slowly losing sight. your stillborn aspirations are abandoned machines. my covert mismatched socks are singing. miles of unspoken thoughts. what if they took me to the door? what if i couldn't stop? the sharks keep moving. and the hands will keep on shaking. from golden favors, to silver tongues. there's an ocean in this drop of water. let's map our escape. chase some scenery. for the next three weeks. we'll bury our teeth in the warm concrete.
3.
planes are penetrating a cryptic night. and the moon's light is shining bright. the tremble of the ground fiercely emits. the roars of forced fate and faint wit. [the soil smells like abandoned ash - a secret hidden in the rich man's cache] the sky is dressed in combat fashion. its aura forged by ember's passion. the night is bringing end to life. and making morning devil's wife. and now counterfeit wonders of stolen time. are graciously escorted by the hand of crime. surely there is an end to this senseless story. because there is never a champion in grisly glory. still, there is optimism approaching forever. in the peace that our trusting children endeavor. and so we allow our missiles to soar. at the expense of the vulnerable and the poor. our hearts are shadowed by fear. yet through the barrel of a gun. hope to deliver democracy. our hearts are shadowed by fear. all 'good' here is insincere. and we are left bearing. the guilt for everything.
4.
She looks straight ahead and focused as hell she tells me all the things that go on in her head, every single day. Now i know i wont understand how she made it here. With all this pain and fear, every single day. She looks down at her feet, i think in my head how i would love to help. She knows nobody can, I still try to pretend. That I'm down there right now, as we speak, we're down there right now count it one two three. One. Two. Breathe. Breathe in you see the world that everyone else lives in, mysterious and quite misunderstood, but loved. It's kinda like the ocean to her, its nice to dip her feet in, it doesn't take long until she cant breathe. I'm down there right now, as we speak, we're down there right now count it one two three. One. Two. Breathe. You are the ocean, you are the ocean, you are the ocean (let me dive in). Softly crying and slowly dying i bear in mind all the words that you say. I'm down there right now, as we speak, we're down there right now count it one two three. One. Two. Breathe.
5.
words unspoken from a long time ago. add up in numbers we've all recorded. you passed around the photographs. collected in an old top hat. you led them to the wolves, arms open wide. you led them to the wolves, they followed. just read between the lines, commission of the crimes. buried them long ago at what toll. consequences across all oceans. do we really ever know the reason why we stand beside. black dog confessions sealed in this envelope. a writ prescription for sins omitted. you passed around a photograph. the picture's of a greater man. you led them to the wolves, followed the scent. you led them to the wolves, devoured. now there's sadness in your eyes, unarmed an alone. a shell of what we used to know. antiquated thoughts and notions. do we really ever ask the reason why we stand beside. false pretense, I understand we can't celebrate the truth. all alone, I wonder how you fall asleep at night. history is written by the champions. history is written by the champions. history is written by the champions. history is written.
6.
Instrumental
7.
Once upon a time you were my light. Now there's nothing of the girl that I knew. If you feel your head's on the ground. Then take my hand and we'll find other things that make you feel happy and don't cry. Lonely tears for a lonely cry. Slowly down, slowly down. You can't deny it. I don't feel love, feel strong, don't feel alive cause I can't fight the moon with my arms. She's going to waste her time. Once upon a time you were my star. I wish I could be the support you really need. If you feel your head's on the ground. Then take my hand, we'll find other things that make you feel happy and don't cry. Lonely tears for a lonely cry. Slowly down slowly down. You can't deny it. I don't feel love, feel strong, don't feel alive cause I can't fight the moon with my arms. She's going to waste her time. Lonely tears for a lonely cry. You can't deny it. I don't feel love, feel strong, cause i don't feel alive cause I can't fly. If I could breathe. Cause I just cry.
8.
Instrumental
9.
Placed on top above the rest. Go nation wide transmission sent. Until you overcome you'll keep it to yourself. Alliances will rise to fight the enemy. This race is for the world domain. Attack the weak the harmless prey. Until you overcome you'll keep it to yourself. Alliances will rise to fight the enemy. I don't think you'll live to see your concience clean. The heaviest load inside your mind. Still you ask around who's got ambitions. So why don't we take them down . They're growing vicious. Oh when will you learn. Placed on top above the rest. Go nation wide transmission sent. Until you overcome, you'll keep it to yourself. Alliances will rise, to fight the enemy. I don't think you'll live to see your concience clean. The heaviest load inside your mind. Still you ask around who's got ambitions. So why don't we take them down . They're growing vicious. Oh when will you learn.
10.
I can't keep up running with wolves the bombs go off I froze. Stuck in a state of urgency my lungs give out can't breathe. Far more than just a face. Far more pick up the pace I can't wait. Orbit around the volcanoes once settled down explode. The darkest black an endless hole if you catch my hand let go. Far more than just a face. Far more pick up the pace I can't wait.
11.
Instrumental
12.
Beautiful people. We are together at this time and we will never be the same. Even though I know we cannot be together as we were I hope and pray. That you are still with me. You are still with me. Here's how I imagine it. Here's how I imagine it. You are a warmth that comes into my heart. And I know you are still with me. Or it is a song that's played at a certain time. And I know you are still with me. I wonder if you believed it. I wonder if you even thought about it. This will be my anthem now. Even though it makes me cry to sing it. You are still with me. Here's how I imagine it. Here's how I imagine it. You are a warmth that comes into my heart. And I know you are still with me. Or it is a song that's played at a certain time. And I know you are still with me.

about

The Emo Diaries, Chapter 12 features Exclusive and Unreleased music by Dedicated To Dedications (Worthing, England), Arms Around The Stereo (Winnipeg, MB, Canada), The Dandelion War (Oakland, CA), The Sky Life (Edmonton, AB, Canada), Ease The Medic (Columbus, OH), Those Galloping Hordes (Reading, PA), Everlyn (Madrid, Spain), Goonies Never Say Die (Blackpool, England), Late Night Condition (Buenos Aires, Argentina), Nathaniel Sutton (Edmonton, AB, Canada), Collapse Under The Empire (Hamburg, Germany) and closes with a stunning submission by Summer Hours (Brooklyn, NY).

Since 1997, The Emo Diaries (www.deepelm.com/emodiaries) has been Deep Elm's way of documenting an extraordinary and powerful style of music that possesses the ability to stir emotion like no other. This legendary CD series has introduced nearly 150 incredible bands including Jimmy Eat World, The Appleseed Cast, This Drama, Further Seems Forever (featuring Chris Carrabba of Dashboard Confessional), Planes Mistaken For Stars, The Movielife, Samiam and many more to fans wordwide. All songs are Exclusive and Unreleased making each chapter of The Emo Diaries a true compilation, not a sampler of previously released music. All bands were selected based on blind submissions of music (10,000+ submissions received)...so only the music matters, not who submits. Deep Elm hasn't intended to define the emo genre, but instead share with you the music that moves us and support these incredible bands...it's what we do. "The best compilation series on this planet...period" says Punk Rock Reviews.

"The most important compilation series for emotional / punk / hardcore music." - Enough

"A rich and utterly rewarding snapshot of this intense and personal musical style." - Scratch

"In the history of the compilation, there has never been a better one than this." - Fracture

"The best compilation series on this planet. Period." - Punk Rock Reviews

www.deepelm.com/emodiaries

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released January 18, 2011

dedicated to dedications
"strange neighborhood"
lauren and richard are dedicated to dedications
they reside in worthing, england
recorded by mark roberts
dedicatedtodedications@live.co.uk
www.dedicatedtodedications.co.uk
www.twitter.com/d2dband

arms around the stereo
"itπs good to have options"
nick, tim and kurt are arms around the stereo
they reside in winnipeg, canada
recorded by john paul peters
info@armsaroundthestereo.com
www.armsaroundthestereo.com
www.twitter.com/aatsband
www.facebook.com/armsaroundthestereo

the dandelion war
"wonders"
larry, mikey, mario, jeff, julius and d are
the dandelion war
they reside in oakland, california
recorded by adam myatt
thedandelionwar@gmail.com
www.thedandelionwar.net
www.twitter.com/thedandelionwar
www.facebook.com/thedandelionwar

the sky life
"as we speak"
justin, josh, dwight and bobby are the sky life
they reside in edmonton, canada
recorded by kandor lin
theskylife@hotmail.com
www.twitter.com/theskylife
www.facebook.com/theskylife

ease the medic
"churchillπs down"
michael, eric, adam and mike are ease the medic
they reside in bexley, ohio
recorded by jon fintel
automatamgmt@yahoo.com
www.easethemedic.com
www.twitter.com/easethemedic
www.facebook.com/easethemedic

those galloping hordes
"tow or flax"
corey, ryan and daniel are those galloping hordes
they reside in red hill, pennsylvania
recorded by ryan herrmann
thosegallopinghordes@gmail.com
www.twitter.com/tghordes
www.facebook.com/thosegallopinghordes

everlyn
"stars"
mario, karol, sergio, javi and tony are everlyn
they reside in madrid, spain
recorded by mario banos
everlynband@hotmail.com
www.twitter.com/everlynband
www.facebook.com/everlynband

goonies never say die
"those who cross the seas change the skies above them but not their souls"
barry, danny, james, simon, chad and michael are goonies never say die
they reside in blackpool, england
recorded by simon morgan and gnsd
gooniesneversaydie@deepelm.com
www.gooniesneversaydie.co.uk
www.twitter.com/gnsd
www.facebook.com/gooniesneversaydiemusic

late night condition
overcome"
alejandro, fernando, nicolas and pablo are late night condition
they reside in buenos aires, argentina
recorded by cariola bros
latenightcondition@hotmail.com
www.twitter.com/latenightcond
www.facebook.com/latenightcondition

nathaniel sutton
"far more"
he resides in edmonton, canada
recorded by zounds
nathanielsutton@hotmail.com
www.twitter.com/nathanielsutton
www.facebook.com/nathanielsutton

collapse under the empire
"anthem of 44"
matthew and christian are collapse under the empire
they reside in hamburg, germany
recorded by collapse under the empire
info@collapseundertheempire.com
www.collapseundertheempire.com
www.twitter.com/collapseempire
www.facebook.com/collapseundertheempire

summer hours
"still with me"
rachel, mike and griffin are summer hours
they reside in brooklyn, new york
recorded by elie massias
this song is dedicated to the fondest memories of the short life of jon dannefer
summerhrs@gmail.com
www.twitter.com/summerhrs
www.facebook.com/summerhours

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